Feeling rather tired. Haven been blogging the last few days cos i have been very busy with school life. or either i dun have tt kind of mood to blog. Its a super tiring week for me cos i only have i guess an average of less than 5hrs sleep a day.
and i can't believe i didn't sleep except for a nap on thursday nite just to study my maths and settle Eclub stuff + Pw. Its so bloody time consuming!. especially the eclub stuff.. *Sigh. i have to complete my PW by tmr i guess. and then.. next coming up is a Mon and Tuesday(especially) Full of test. I screwed up my phy test too this week which was what the hell sadding due to my speed of doing. I'm so utterly disappointed with my performance. and den maths. my hope of getting full marks was crash with tt 2mark quest. Just couldn't figure out the formula or the term....
Disappointment one after another. Realli realli very disappointed with my results. And den on thursday i rmbed.. Mdm Goh gib us a lectured. which was like omg realli wake me up. I realli feel guilty though i did pay attention during all her lessons and just for tt particular lesson i didn't do her Revision Ex2 (too tired to).. And den she asked us to think if our commitment in other activities is realli worth the time.. i felt like answering her "Well.. its not abt whether its worth my time or not, bud its my responsibility to do so. i can't just give it up and let it off liddat u see.."
i look at myself in the mirror.. i am realli afraid tt my results will deteriorate. and den i realise that i have been pushing my hws to last min work and den tests results not hitting my aims. what is this? is this what i realli wan when i decideddd to come JJ? NO!! There is seriously things to consider abt- like my unhealthy lifestyle of watching tv and computer for hours and hours, not touching my hw.. I'm so angry with myself bud i dun seems to be able to control myself.
Ok den today, i spent 6hrs in BBSS doing some CIP work - Car washing. den at first it was boring. No car to wash and while i am washing my car, it starts to drizzle. Den shumin transfer me from the car wash grp to the Sales grp whereby u have to run here run there to the car and back. Lols. quite happy tt ppl praise me. :D bud some ppl aren't very happy with us (all the volunteers)cos we were busy talking and we wash very slow. Bud what to do? Its like we are already willing to volunteer to spend 6hrs of time (despite our busy schedules especially so many test next week) to wash the car and we still get scolded. *Sigh.
Whatever.. Bud basically, i think on tues or wad. i found some relevant news that the 3 of them have already agreed to come singapore!!. so happy and excited when i read abt it and my heart started thumping non stop. and wads more! its after PROMOS! hope i can go. miss them real much.
Ok Off to study!
10:16 PM
