my craze for worldcup would soon come to an end. no plan of watching semi-finals nor finals since they are showing on weekdays. moreover double disappointment. those who R expected to go into the semi-finals didn't get into. I tot i was dreaming when this morning came into the room and shout "France won.." Thiery Henry scores. Whatever the case.. i still supports ger. I dun place high hopes on them. to me.. i am okay with anyone who wins the game except Portugal.

finding new songs to listen. bud dun hab. listening to old songs~ budden sometimes it just make me rmb some memories i had.. which is like.. rather sour. i'm feeling so terrible with life. maybe i am just sick and tired of the things i am doing right now. lost my source of motivation as well.

i just hope i can dig my way through and continue doing well in my studies. probably hit my target. or find smth tt i have interest in. and den... of cos i wish i have a choice.. no studies. Bud i know it is impossible cos its hard for me to give up on my studies cos i have no confidence. I have to admit tt living in Singapore is realli a terrible thing cos of the education system here. no certificate = no future.

recently, have been rather chatty with dad. it seems like i always talk to him now. maybe it was becos for the past 1 week, almost everyday he have been picking me up from sch. and den.. alena told me abt cyril being so filial. hah.. it makes me feel rather guilty .. wonder will i regret in future. *sigh. i realli wonder.. why is it so hard to open my mouth to tell my family members, my mum, my dad, my bro dat deep in my heart i care abt them and love them.

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