i am not feeling well. bad flu day. block nose, sore throat and stuffs. too much of screaming on friday or maybe sunday cheering for the soccer match tt i watched.

today feel so sorry to so many ppl. i realise i am lagging back. as in i no longer do tutorials and stuff.. what i promised others to do i didn't do. Sorry for everything. luckily things seems fine to me right now. at least i still understands my lectures and i am revising in the bus at times. And den i have actually promised my teachers to take up the selection test for phy and chem olympaid. I noe i'm not up to standard and i probably won't get past the selection test anywae. Budden its giving much pressure to myself.

It seems like 2 weeks after the common test, i have turned into a even busier person. i think busy to have fun outside. Bud they are just promise i have made to people and that i have to turn up for sure. Its my responsibility and duty to do so. Bud it was yesterdae's event that make me feel what i am doing are total meaningless.. exhausting.. and den i realise the fact that i no longer enjoy the process at all. Unless it was just my idols. not all stars are as friendly as them, not all stars appreciate the things we have done for them. So i kinda decided tt i would only go and have a look unless it is some ppl tt i realli like or other programmes like TVBI Promo and most imp. when my idol comes. Still considering whether i should go and see chiobu.

I feel that i have neglected my family at times, when i actually am busy going out with frens and busy with sch work. i wished to talk to them, bud i find it just so hard or rather weird to just tell them abt what happen in sch. I know that becos of my sch life i am pressurised or maybe i have just become increasingly irritatble that i often vent my anger and yell at them. And i just find it so hard to say sorry. I realli thanked them for trusting me and giving me freedom to do anything i wan. Trusting me i can manage my time well or handle my studies well. In fact my motivation studies not only comes from my character of being competitive bud at the same time.. i know that that's the only way i can do to repay them.

FL closed down. a sudden strike on fung fans. kinda feel a pity. definitely.. and after reading what Sasa post at the guestbook.. i just dunno how i feel. i think its hard to put down the things she have done to FL. though i dun go FL that often. i always feel that Sasa did a very good job in every aspect, she is definitely a gd leader. Bud things are like this.. when its time u have to part with something, u must part.

Its tuesday tomorrow. remember to watch "It's showtime". Wonder will i be on tv. hahs. friday was a great day out with BBSS gd buddies and we have a great time cheering. realli think our grp are hypers bud i lost my voice when the recording have even started! and i finally understanding the meaning of team work and JJ Spirit. Though we lost the competition, we did not lose our spirit awae. It's amazing how just 1 person can lead so many ppl in a cheer. and when the leader say Shhh. there was realli pure silence. realli enjoy cheering. hope there are more of such events in future.

On the other hand.. i think sch was fine bud.. i guess there are more and more internal conflicts between people in my class just that people doesn't show it out. Maybe like what Huisi have said. the better u noe someone.. the more u find the bad pts in them and the more conflicts will occur. It was then i realise the people who are closer to me are still my secondary sch frens. after being frens for more than 4 years, we noe each other well and it is only them that i dare to tell them what i dislike abt them and i realise we dun always quarrel anymore.

Oh yea i have finally receive my kevin's album and poster signed. Thanx veron and yen yee for the help. The album was kinda cheap and the packaging was real nice. Though not sure whether the songs are nice or not. bud i am already happy to see the album in my hands. plus plus all the picture in the pictorial book are nicely taken. moreover its just cost 16.50 inclusive of poster! :D

Yesterdae's soccer match was funny and interesting. realli entertaining. much of the time was spent on laughing at Eric Tsang (Zeng Zi Wei) and Chen Bai Xiang's weird action when they kick the ball and stuffs. hahaha its just so funny.

Anywae shall end here... shall update again./

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