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This person directly shoot ay right in her face. Bud i agree with her words lah. U are not worried. what for we worry?. I feel like replying her msg and shoot her down too. bud i noe she won't come back for the 2nd time to read.

well, i noe sooner or later she will come online and leave a msg at the TYguestbk. i'm not sure if its her or not. neither do i wanna noe. Knowing would makes me feel even sianx.The one posted by her manager(dunno is it her not) was the one tt makes me boil a little. bad attitude and den its like doubting we fans. If we aren't concern abt her.. we won't even post those stuffs.

Let's just gib her up lah.. maybe my feelings as a fan of hers will die off soon. it's even when u spoke to us, i dun have the confidence to believe u. Just feel very disappointed..

10:36 PM

have been very reluctant to touch the com. cos recently there are not much news abt ay and i couldn't be bothered with other things as well. Have lots of hw to do.. budden too lazy to do as well.

BPPlaza was exceptionally crowded last nite.. tt i shopped till almost 12 midnight. Everything was on offer. and i bought a tee at OP for 8bucks only. Feel very sick of my mum cos she is darn KS. oh well, if u look at the queues at the free gift counter.. She's not the only KS one. well i hated the crowd!. went bras brasah too to get my GC and to search for some old TBs. budden i am quite unwilling to spend the $$ knowing tt i may not finish up reading them. Had swensens for dinner and the steak-burger sux.

sometimes what appear infront of u doesn't seem to be what it is like. And i think kids are all damn innocent. in the past i was one too. i tot everybody in my father side family are nice and its the best family in the whole world. Now tt we have grown up.. everything may not appears as it be.

off i go..

7:23 PM

i think i am missing yy cast again. a few days back i dreamt tt ay came SG with snake to film some series tgt.


Feeling rather tired. going off to sleep soon. touch trial today. games only. looking for my new bag. couldn't find 1 tt i liked. wanna watch UTCOL. got kawing. bud no time to watch eh.

i find it hard to be in contact with my close frens sometimes cos our time table dun suit each others one. if we were in diff sch.. the worse?.. How i wish time could turn back...


Westlife-That's Where You Find Love
In your eyes, I found the greatest price
You and I could not be closer
And in your arms, is everything I want
Now I know my search is over

and I don't know where you take me
But it's exactly where I wanna be

[Chorus:]
it's where the stars line up
It's where the ocean starts
It's in a place I've never been that feels like home
It's in the air right now
It's when you give your all, and give a little more
I've never been so sure, that's where you find love

People pass, and listen to us laugh
wishing that they had the same thing
And our friends they ask, how we made it last
I just smile and say the same thing

I'm not sure how we got here
baby I'm just glad that we got here

[Chorus:]
it's where the stars line up
It's where the ocean starts
It's in a place I've never been that feels like home
It's in the air right now
It's when you give your all, and give a little more
I've never been so sure, that's where you find love
That's where you find love

It's where the stars line up
It's where the ocean starts
It's in the place and everything that feels like home

It's in the air right now
It's when you give your all, and give a little more
I've never been this sure, that's where you find love

Find love
That's where you find love

11:42 PM

have a gd nite sleep yesternite. I will never have such a privellege if i ever go AJ, being such a dily-dally person. 2 days in JJ and so far i feel comfortable in my class, though i still dislike how pathetic my class is. 6 girls only.

i can't help but compare AJ to JJ cos i was once a AJcians. i'm adapting to the environment and i realli think JJcians are more outgoing. Just tt i wasn't too happy with the chemistry lab. Compared to the well-organised lab in Aj though, Lao kok kok, the lab in JJ is a little too stuffy and dirty. I realli miss the neatness of AJ lab. and i do miss Koh Wendy. lols, cos she's realli a gd chem teacher. Bud JJ stil rawk haha.

Have been rather confused over stuff lately. and i am realli afraid tt i couldn't cope with stuff if i choose a CCA tt is too vigorous. considering Hockey, well there's training on mon and wed. i scare i cannot tahan the long hours cos i have lessons till 5 on mon. and den plus plus, i have join the jj scholarship thing and den there would be more activities coming up soon. i wonder how much time do i have for my hw. cos afterall ur studies is the most imp. thing. well and student council... i have some interest in it. budd.. still time is the most imp factor. can i realli cope?.

i wonder why all my interest come out at a time when i realli needed to concentrate more on studies. bud i am realli glad tt i am working towards my goal. at least my thinking was correct. i noe going to JJ means having more opportunities to excel in other aspects rather than just studies. In Aj, if u wants to be in some prog, u would have to approach the teacher. for JJ, they find u instead. Being a person who needed a push b4 doing anything, JJ would suit me better. Hahs.

off for dinner. nitez

5:27 PM

i'm dead tired. for the past 3 days have been going to the same old place. Heeren den Cine.. cine den heeren. watched Nanny Mcphee with emily n yF on sat. before heading to clementi with jessica to develop some photos. some unhappy events happened. and well well..

Sunday, was suppose to go beauty world first. Took 75. and i passed by bukit timah, bud couldn't find tt building (i last came here a few years back). and so i decided to wait a while more. than.. wait ar wait.. Omg! i reach orchard Liaos. lol stupid rite? so i take on to suntec so i could change to mrt to expo- wanted to get my chop. Den i headed to cine (again!) to meet up with the rest to celebrate 2 girls' bdae lols. Happy Belated Bdae!!

bz lately. and i dun think i would have much time to update already. I signed up for the JJ scholarship programme already. hopefully i can benefit from it and get maintain my results.

Mum is getting god damn irritating. for the past few times she phoned my hp. den she started scolding me from the start till the end. and i only spoke 1 sentence. and she hanged me up. think she PMS. ass man. i was on my way to suntec when she called and scold me once. when i alighted the bus she called again. I cannot stand her tmd attitude anymore so i yell at her in the phone. Then some ppl in front of me turn back to look at me =.=. Den i couldn't be bothered with her anymore, so i just hang her up.

Bud feeling unsatisfied cos i am still full of anger, i msged my mum "Go eat shit lah. Call ppl liao nv hear ppl explain den keep scolding ppl. UNREASONABLE FREAK!", thinking tt she won't reply me. Surprisingly she did. and her msg was like so lame. "So stubborn, Nv fold blanket." =.=.. LOLs. i told jessica and she was like "Huh? yesterdae ur mum at bg scold u nv fold blanket, now still scolding?"

off to sleep. dead tired.

9:52 PM

Yesterdae was relatively pissed. Feel very tired actually so i went to took a nap and woke up at 3plus. just in time to pack my things and take a bus to heeren. well i still reach 15mins early. Shopped ard heeren. At 4sharp. i dunno whether to go somerset not. Cos i am left alone since bel and latercomer hasn't reach. So i phone up everyone. 1 Still At Home, 1 at CCK, 1 still at Bukit Timah. and the last 1 watching movie. ..

Actually i aren't angry lah. budden the one who watches movie makes me pissed. when i reach somerset mrt it's already 4.10. and u are still watching movie ?! when u are suppose to meet the whole class at 4. I walk one big round and realise i am the stupidest woman in the whole wide world cos no one was there except me lah. at tt instant i feeling like going home str8 awae. dun even feel like coming.

Had marche for dinner and when we are abt to go. my hp by accident dropped into the toilet. =.=.. goshh.. lols. so jiat lat lah. i left it to dry outside den still cannot switch on. *Sigh. . . lols dunno what to do le.

9:44 AM

Oh gosh. wad a bad news. lol jessica just told me tt ailing saw my face appearing in TVB8 regarding the Lunch Gathering at Esplanade. i was like =.=.. scorpioeast finally updated their website and here is the pic at the lunch gathering. Well its quality camera. Just tt i prefered the stars to be in the center. Well the aunties who share the table with us are nice as well!.

yesterdae was like sicko day. feeling very sick. going to the polyclinic makes me sicker. and when i got home i can't wait to lie on bed to rest. waiting for the doctor was still alright. while waiting to get my medicine and billing, i feel sicker and sicker.. a bit of headache etc. Imagine 50++ ppl queueing in front of u as well.

feeling rather tired this days and i think this holiday passes so damn quickly. and i am still very bz till the end of this week. Have to revise as well. still mugging hard on thermal physics lol. i'm dead tired. . going off to sleep soon!.

sometimes i do wish ahyi would be as nice as kenix. kenix is one idol who treat their fans extraordinary nice. not tt ahyi wasn't nice i just have my own thinking for saying this haha.

12:05 AM

TVBI Promo 2006

Erm Kevin, Elaine, Kenix, Frankie came to town on friday. was too busy with family chalet so i didn't went down to see them until Saturday evening. Sneak out of Chalet. and all my family noes tt i went stargazing thanx to my father lah. and when i came back. Every single 1 of them asked me "U went stargazing ar?" i went =.=.

So i rushed down to tampines mall after www to meet kenix. and by then there are quite a little ppl standing in front le. so i joined in. Den it started raining. bad day! and some part of the place is like open spaced lah. i was drenched. and even after tt it stopped raining. water continue dripping on me thanx to the auntie beside me cos they kept dripping water from their umbrella onto my jacket. *(&$(*(#%*)_*#^)_#. Jessica and Sukai came too. and dey gib me lots of rubbish cos i told them i wan play games and the games required those stuff. In case i can get on stage to play with them lah. i will win. i went dots.

Dey started asking quests to win tickets to the Seafood Gathering. den i kept raising my hand to answer bud cannot get it lah. Help veron and yen yee mah. Den it is only until 6.30 den the big stars arrived. Dat was like so damn late. They came out. den i saw kevin scanning the crowd. I waved a little to him. and just then he caught side of me. Den he wave back and gib tt "Eh!?!" look, raising one of his finger up. I do back the same thing and he nodded his head to me. At that instant i was like so darn happy!. I think he rmbed me lah. (think only lah)

they introduced theirselves. Kenix sang Yau Fuk Hei. Elaine sang Wo zhen de shou shang le. and kevin sang live - triangle 3 sides. And Frankie i hear b4 tt song. bud forgotten the title. after tt the games were cancelled and then there is only autograph session. managed to go on stage to get the signatures bud its not pass over by the artists personally. How disappointing. I stopped a little while to look at kevin. just then kevin turn his head up, saw me and smiled saying "hello!". i also said hello back. before going down.

Den after tt i headed on to my chalet.

The next morning, met jessica and sukai at City Hall mrt. before going down to esplanade to hab Seafood gathering at No Signboard Seafood restaurant. we came the latest i suppose and our table was the last few. We played some lame games first b4 the arrival of the artist. and there was this balloon game tt we keep hitting the balloon to the other table. Sukai won 3 dvds. Den there is another angbao game tt Vic won another 3 dvds. lol.

After a long wait, the stars finally arrived. they walk past our table first. and i was sitting near the aisle where they pass by us. so i wave to all 4 of them. and they nv get to see me. only kevin did. i was like waving at him and he saw me and say "Eh?! ni ye zai zhe li ar? (eh? u also here?)" Den i nodded my head. den he kinda shake my hand and walk to the front where his table was located. Lols this time i realli cfmed tt he rmbed me.

Den they went to every table to take pic with us. Macham wedding dinner liddat lah. den i managed to shake hand with kenix and kenix is realli realli very nice cos she helped jessica do smth also haha. Cute also. den Kevin also turned and shake hand with us and said "Mus eat a lot ok?" lols. so cute lah.

Had our dinner and some lucky draws. den after tt thats the end of the seafood gathering. Bud the food is damn delicious. got pepper crab!. Me, vivian and kenix took a MRT to the airport to meet jessica and company. the stars arrived late lah. And the security was damn tight. den dey dun allow us to take pics so we only took their signature. The ticket thing was down. and i kept waving to Kevin only. and he wave back and gib tt "What's up" look. lols. so funny lah. den got 1 moment i was like so near to him. den i hand him the pics i took with him tgt with another 2 notebook and ask him to sign. den he help me sign le. den he look at the notebook den he look at me back. Den he kinda knock the book back and ask "what u wanna do with this 2?" Den i blur tiao. so i say "Er.. nth 1.. oh nono.. can u help me write msg?" Den he said "U wan me write wad?" Den i said "Anything also can.." Den he say "Dear grace is it?" lols.. den i nodded my head lols. den he help jessica to write also.

Den i went over to the other side to take photo of him cos the security push us awae. Den i look at him again. i think i sot tiao le. haha. Den suddenly he pt at my head and said smth. I tot he say tt my hairband a bit weird or wad lah cos its very unusual tt i wore a hairband - tt was my for Jj night lols. So i touch my head to adjust the hairband or so. den it turns out to be tt kevin said in canto lah "U wear tt hair band very si wen, very diff from b4". Wah piang eh.. Dats means he is saying i last time not si wen lah =.=.

Den after tt we wave bye bye to him before he goes in. and we ran to the 2nd floor where we can peep at them shopping inside. Kevin is damn cock eye at first cos he didn't see us lah. den got some fans bang the glass door so loudly den gib him scold bud in a very cute manner hahaha. Elaine also quite shock to see us lah. so funny haha. she's very nice and cute also. Oh yah and b4 kevin went off. he gib goodbye kiss to me leh!. lols so i gib back. hahaha so funny.

well now i think kevin rmbs me is becos maybe on friday veron let him sign the cute cute funny pic me and jessica took with him tgt. and he rmbs from there. Hahahah he is damn cute lah. heard tt he luff to himself when he was signing tt photo. :D lalala

tt's all lah. :D lazy to elaborate further(not ahyi mah). and kenix is very nice. i got eye contact with her once. bud i quite regret tt i nv smile at her. missed my chance to take pic with her. bud its alright. afterall i love ahyi the most..

now i miss ahyi!. sigh.. realli miss her. hahahah

5:27 PM

Family Chalet At Downtown East

Right after my JJc camp. me and emily rush back home to pack our stuff before heading to Pasir Ris for our chalet. Benson went down to collect the keys first before meeting me and emily. Took a MRT to Downtown East. And Emily asked if i did open my bag when i was in the mrt just now. She suspected tt the guy beside attempted to steal my stuff. lucky she turn her head just in time. I guess maybe he did cos i was too bz sleeping to notice anything.

Reach dte. and me and Emily was quite dead cos we are having lack of sleep. Went to chalet to slack and benson tried to scare me. he say i nv knock the cupboard before i open it. Cos smth might be inside. Den we watch Seed of Hope followed by Dinner time at the Food Court there. Watch a little of fantastic Four. and then headed on to the arcade to play. Idiot was surprisingly nice to treat us to some snacks at Cheers. Den we went back to talk and den we just fall asleep. each of us occupying 1 bed. Lols. guess me and emily were pretty drained out after the camp.

Was kinda afraid at night when i woke up suddenly. hear some weird noise. i think idiot was snoring. i admit i do snore too Lols. and there is this big mirror right in front of us which make it look realli eerie lah. Dey say we were not suppose to sleep in front of the mirror.. Hias.

The next morning. we had breakfast at macdonald and Kenneth mum smsed the 3 of us. lols the sms is darn lame lah "Hey wake up! Geared up for www. we are on our way." Lame Lame lame! . Help to carry stuff to the chalet cos there are super a lot of things lah. The Adults are damn kiasu. budden the only good thing abt adults is tt they have a lot of $$. and den we do not need to be afraid tt we did not forget to bring anything.

Went to www. and this is like the 1st time in dunno how many years dat i wore a swimming costume. Played lots of slide games and the baby pool at www was damn fun lah!. play catching at the baby pool and had great fun at tsunami. Until i got my skin all burnt. it is still super red and my face is damn black. i think macham african. I wan my white skin back!. germaine is realli kinda timid can. lols we kept asking her to play the slide and she is like so scare can. Kept crying and crying. The best thing is. the adults prepared lots of food for us to eat at www. Got beehoon. Soft packet drinks got Mango pudding cum bread. Darn nice lah. no need waste $$.

Den up next was BBQ. i came back only at 8 plus becos i went stargazing. and they have alreAdy save up some food for me. Kenneth realli enjoy BBq-ing sisa. den i went in to play with the kids. Deree were some kids who are damn cute lah. One is kenneth cousin. lol. played the passing of msg game.. and so lame lah. darn fun jiu shi le. den i dunno when i fall asleep. Den dunno which idiot at ard 1 wake me up leh. say wad wan go dunno where. so i sit up str.. and fall asleep again. the next thing i heard was bro saying "Say lin feng come already den she will wake up already". Den he goes.. "Lin Feng lai Le Lin feng lai le.." i was like =.= what the bloody hack? so i stood up to wash my facce. in the end dey nv do anything and just watch TV. so i went back to sleep again. den its like 6 ppl squeezing 2 bed lah. and i snatch Felicia's blanket lols.

Wake up. the adults went to changi village to buy breakfast for us. Placed our orders. den we brought germaine out for a walk tgt cos she wan to go and see the games in Escape. den went to the beach instead. Just then my parents called to ask us back so tt we can hab our breakfast. . had our breakfast and den i rushed off to meet Jessica and Company.

Quite a pity lah didn't finish eating my breakfast den i went stargazing le. hopefully we guys have picnic again and i guess i was pretty much drained out and den we guys didn't play much tgt this time round. Everybody got a super bad sunburnt. and den me and emily was DOuble sunburn. and now tt i lost my voice, i also have 2 blocked ears. and den my skin is hurting so badly lah. :( .. sob. yea its holiday now!!

4:58 PM

JJc Kaleidoscope of Life Camp 2006

some ppl mentioned tt going JJc instead of a better sch like AJ if u have the choice is like risking ur future. Sometimes i think. Yes it does. Bud for the time being i have not regretted my choice. Cos i noe what i wanted most and not just following the crowd blindly. Going to Aj means i have lots of restrictions. In fact there are quite a lot of Ajcians living in Bukit Panjang Area and i wonder why i can't be like them.. Sometimes i do wonder. Bud the Fact is I am me and i can't suit they way some ppl can withstand the long travel journey.

JJc's Camp was alright. It was not as fun as i tot it would be. bUd still its fun. What i loved most would be the Mass Dance tt i hab learnt. Bud i have forgotten it already. and Den Afternoon Heats was fun playing water games!. OG7 was great as a whole though i still dunno much of them well since OG7 was quite pathetic in terms of the no. of girls. i guess there were only 6-8. and some didn't turn up for the camp.

We cheered and have great fun at the Telematch which was pretty short and lame. U can cheat u noe hahaha. and thanx ying yee for piggy-backing me for a short while haha. Nearly got my feet burnt due to the hot floor. i think my feet is still damn red. *sigh. And den War of Combat was like.. So Gross can. i wonder how much fruits they hab wasted and water bombs. I guess the water bill would be high. Was damn cold lah at night and i slept with meiyee.

tt's all. dun feel like elaborating the whole stuff. and i think i am suppose to be in OG14 with clara. *Sigh. :(. well i came in late. who to blame? blame it on my ficklemindedness. Well its fun anywae. and i enjoyed much of the stuff.

Got a little sun burnt and den i lost my voice Lols. OG7 rawks ~~

Then comes to the JJ night and bel came to my OG to join me in dancing. Lols one of my OGL - Pei Pei happens to be living in the same block as me. what the.. And she was like "U looks very familiar ar.. where did i see u b4?". And we moved into the same block almost at the same time yet i haven seen her b4. realli darn KuKu.
Danced with bel until tt kuku Hon hon came to break us all up instead of some other ppl who are having girl-girl partner! UNfair!!!! Whatever the case. i love JJ night the best. And i love the the pressies the OGLS have made for us- Its a heart rap with aluminium foil and den a light bulb in the center dat can realli light up. I think it means "U lights up my heart"? i think its realli nice and it cost a lot as well?

Bought my uniform and went home to prepare for Chalet after tt.

4:23 PM